Tuesday, January 31, 2006

RIP Coretta Scott King-and thank you sister

"Sleep tonight, and may your dreams, be realized. If the thundercloud passes, let it rain, let it rain, rain on me"-U2-MLK (from the Unforgettable Fire)
Coretta Scott King, (widow of the late civil rights leader Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.) passed away late last night, quietly in her sleep. Just a few weeks past MLK's celebrated birthday and holiday, we bow our heads.. In coalition with the black, Native American, people of color, peace, unity and yes the metal community we bow our heads and salute Coretta Scott King.
All flags should be flown and half staff today. Interesting year in the post civil rights movement now in the new millennium. The idiots that murdered the three civil rights workers (see the movie Mississippi Burning) have been brought to justice after almost 30 years. Rosa Parks passed away last year, and now Coretta Scott King passes on..........I am deeply saddened to hear of Coretta Scott Kings passing, and condolences go out to her friends and family worldwide.
Now the torch has been passed to our generation for upgrading civil rights and equal opportunity for all. We will not forget, RIP Coretta Scott King.
Stay Metal, Stay Multi cultural, and PEACE \m/

Monday, January 30, 2006

Show your GRIMNESS take the black metal test

Take this test on black metal, and show or prove your "grimness".. http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=10186923571281637262


Thanks-Tee-Stay Metal, Brutal, frostbtten and GRIM-\m/ -l- (Random Thoughts will be bumped later)

Thursday, January 19, 2006

4 part journal entry on Kurt Cobain 4/04 (archived, spellchecked, and consolidated)

Bringing back the archives from 4/04. My four part journal entries from 4/04 on Kurt Cobain, spell checked and consolidated..I preferred death metal to grunge in the 90's, but I can look back on the 90's as my younger days as their is some respect for Kurt Cobain... Looking back on that fateful day April 7th, 1994.: BTW, I have seen the movie Kurt and Courtney yeears ago, and I don't know what to think about the conspiracy theories, I think Cobain committed suicide.

"Polly wants a cracker, maybe I should untie her,It amazes me the WILL of instict"-Nirvana.

I just had the worst dream, and missed my doctors appointment because I was so freaked out. I had a nightmare about Kurt Cobain. I dreamt I was at his funeral? I saw him in his casket with a bandage on his head..I had a vision that the EMT workers dragged his body around..It was weird and I didn't wake up until after 1PM today..

The day that Kurt Cobian died I was a DJ (later music director) for the SUNY New Paltz college radio station WFNP (88.7 FM)..We always joked about our favorite bands. We used to joke with the production director/ (Keith Spillet who DJed the extreme metal show HEADLESS BABY on WFNP-those were the days!), Program director that Brett Guerwitz from Bad Religion called the radio station looking for him.

We would leave Keith notes: "Brett Guerowitz (of Bad Religion) called, call him back at "1-800-PUNKROCK"..

When Kurt Cobain died I thought it was a sick joke being played off by my radio station associates. I walked into SUNY New Paltz's food court and (WFNP's)  traffic director said that Kurt Cobain had killed himself.. I thought it was a joke! I went upstairs to WFNP and EVERYONE was talking about Kurt Cobain's death. I didn't believe it. I told them at WFNP, "You guys need to STOP joking about this, stop f**ing with me!"                                                                                                                       It was a strange feeling in the SUB the day they found Cobain's body. Everyone went about thier business and Cobains death was a matter of a fact, almost secondary thought thing, almost a form of denial.. Everyone was in personal conversation and when I said "Hi", they would look up and state Cobain had committed suicide (totally out of context to their original convo), with a very serious look on their face,  and went right back to their original convo's... "Um Kurt Cobain committed suicide, yes he did."..:(My friend turns to other freind:) "So are we going out to P and G's tonight?, I might have an exam."

I went home, turned on my TV, flipped through channels, got to MTV, and Nirvana's unplugged was on..Then I KNEW, that he was gone, and this was NO joke..

I just sat there, shocked and stunned that this was happening..

BBL (with part 2)

Remembering Kurt Cobain (part 2)


At the time of Kurt Cobain's death I was on a 7 month leave of absence from college. Although I did return (after briefly moving back in with my mom and working in NYC at Tower records) to finish another semester in college. I was working as a live in mothers helper and often got called in to do fill in work for WFNP's top 40 countdown wich was unofficially co-hosted by Keith Spillet (the metal head that he was \m/).. Through WFNP. I got into some great underground death metal (Amorphis, Deicide, DEATH, Morbid Angel, ect...)

I was also going through a deep personal depression and was contaplating suicide my self with already one failed attempt.

One day I was sitting down town in New Paltz with a copy of Time magazine or Newsweek (with the cover story of Kurt Cobain's death) in my hand. A good drinking buddy (Maurine)/ friend of mine, walked up to me and said, "Suicide is the most SELFISH thing that a person can do to themselves and their family", and my friend went on about how that was soo selfish of Kurt to do that..

I didn't know what to say..However, I'm still alive, and my life had to get worse to get better, but I really appreciate life so much more now. I've gotten help for the feelings of depression ect. that I have..

BBL with part 3

Remembering Kurt Cobain (part 3)


I remember when I started off at WRNP (WFNP's AM radio station) as a dj playing METAL..There was much hype about this band Nirvana (although Nirvana were NOT metal) whose contract with SUBPOP got bought out by the major label Geffen. WFNP played Nirvana's Bleach when they were signed to the indie label SUBPOP. I saw Nirvana live at Roseland (NYC) once (great show, fun pit!) and enjoyed watching Nevermind rise up the billboard charts ousting Michael Jackson at the number 1 position.

It was good times indeed, but this dream I had about Kurt Cobain freaked me out. It IS the ten year anniversary of his (Cobain's) death, but I think his life should be celebrated along and the good music he left behind.It was more than Nirvana kicking those hair bands off the charts, it was the impact of an understated song called POLLY from the CD Nevermind.

Polly is a song about rape. However, in a strange twist of fate, the underdog (female) persuades the rapist to untie her, give her a cracker, HUMANIZE her.."Polly says..Polly wants a cracker, maybe I should untie her, amazes me the will of instinct..Let me clip her dirty wings, let me take a ride, cut yourself.."..

Great  anti rape song from Nirvana (as riveting but more empowering than the Tori Amos song "Me and a Gun") about humanizing a woman, a rape victim, about the woman empowering herself and changing the scenario and getting the rapist to untie her. I played this song on WFNP less then a week after Kurt Cobain killed himself..None of these "commercial" radio stations had the guts to play that song. 

BBL with part 4.   

Remembering Kurt Cobain (part 4)


Someone misconstrued the Nirvana song "Polly" (back in the early 90's) and actually went out and raped a female, using the song as the soundtrack to their act of violence. This act of violence and obvious misinterpretation of the song (and hatred against women) infuriated Nirvana enough to call the rapists the "scumbags" that they were on the liner notes of Nirvana's second major label release In Utero.

I applaud Nirvana for writing "Polly"..

In the dream I had about Kurt Cobain I told the EMT workers "Not to treat him like that" and not to show his body because "I didn't need to see that"..I must have tossed and turned for hours but didn't wake up untill 1PM this afternoon. I woke up and thought about Kurt Cobain, and this being the 10 year anniversary of his death I cried a little bit..

I didn't cry back in '94 when he (Cobain) died, I was still in shock. There was also so much great death and extreme metal back in the early 90's, that Nirvana seemed, well, POP/HARD ROCK back then.

There is no shame is saying that Kurt Cobain was one of the better songwriters of his time, and he had so much more to offer.

Kurt Cobain was the right songwriter, for the right time, with substance, and vision, good vocals, a distorted guitar, with no gimmicks, no hairspray, in a simplistic tone, and no male chauvinistic ego.

Refreshing indeed..What more could you ask for? As thier were rumors (before Cobains death) that Kurt was going to do some acoustic folk material, and that Nirvana were going to disband anyway, (Nirvana turned down Lollapalooza) and his marriage was in trouble, and some kind of failed OD/suicide in Europe..Arrgh!

When I went on the air in '94, less than a week after Cobains suicide ( I wasn't the first to announce Cobains death on WFNP) I played "Polly" and explained the meaning or my interpretation of the song. I didn't cry, and I did my job DJ'ing in a business like, almost in a journalists fashion. (Journalism was my major at the time)..

TEN years later, it hit me in a dream how tragic Cobains death was..I can still remember watching MTV the day of his death, and the kids at Kurts memorial in a  Seattle  park jumping in the water, Courtney Love reading Kurts suicide note, and everything seeming so surreal. 

And the first time we played Nirvana on WFNP waay before Geffen signed them..We (WFNP) got a pre release copy of Nevermind and we were in the music library listening to the new Nirvana CD. When Cobain screamed in "Smells like Teen Spirit" "Our little group has always been, and always will untill the end"..Even us DEATH METALHEADS, and the graduating seniors looked around the room at each other and nodded our heads, because this was OUR group, our friendship, our click, and the music scene was changing for the better. Even death metal was on the rise and everybody in the room KNEW IT!

Today, one day before my 34th birthday, just like it does everyday in Seattle, it's raining here in New York...I'm sure if Kurt Cobian were still alive he would concur with the late Layne Staley of perhaps the more underrated Seattle band, Alice In Chains. "It's gonna rain when I die!"-AIC.

Point of reference: Check out: Tori Amos's GREAT cover of Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit"

RIP-Kurt Cobian-TEE -l- \m/


Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Gus Van Sant's: "Last Days"

 "It's going to rain when I die"-Alice In Chains                                                                  I just watched Gus Van Sant's movie "Last Days" on DVD/HBO special... "Last Days" is a fictional movie inspired by the last few days of late Nirvana front man Kurt Cobain whom committed suicide in April of 1994... Kim Gordon (Sonic Youth) was involved in the movie as well... I THINK Gus Van Sant directed the movie "My Own Private Idaho" as well (starring the late River Phoenix and Flea of the RHCP).

There is not much dialogue in the movie as fictional character "Blake" is tied up in a heroin haze, tapped by friends for money and favors, and being followed by a private investigator hired by his wife...The lack of dialogue and the almost silent scenes in. "Last Day's" sets a bleak, dark, atmosphere of desolation, alienation and isolation. It's hard to watch and very sad, although "Last Days" is very minimalist in its approach.....                                                    With the exception of heroin, I've been  in that dark, desolate place where death is a relief from the pain and misery of life..

The fact is, Gus Van Sant does not moralize or point a finger of blame in "Last Days", he leaves it up to the viewer..Whatever ones opinions on drugs, the music bussiness, fame, money, suicide, a wife, a kid, and free loading freinds is also up to the viewer.. Then again, with excesses, come the "selfishness" and inevitable self destruction of being... Also, the untimate self punishment of suicide which can be construed as either freedom from hell or the most selfish act of all, specifically when one is a parent.

The pun here is Blake, the characters name (no offense to the late Kurt Cobain).. W. Blakes "Doors of Perception"..Get it?

It's strange because "Blake" is not alone in his house,( not alone but lonely) and his friends seem  too trendy, too self centered to really, truly care about Blake..They may cover for Blake in many ways, but there is back stabber in the house with a PI following behind..As soon as Blake entered the greenhouse to take his life, his "friends" jetted..No one suggested to Blake, "Here man, check your self in, check your head, we're cover for you, fuck the music business....(Then again Blake had just escaped from rehab as Kim Gordon's character offered help of sorts)..We'll help you if you want to go to the hospital.". Blake's "freinds" got this sketchy feeling and split..

I've been through that feeling where the "drama" of the music business and the local scene exceeds anyone's interest in me, and people just want to freeload.. However, I have enough balls to say NO, and to TRY to take care of my self..

It's almost as if Blake was a fugitive in his own home..I'm not sure if it's "fair" to apply this DVD to the last few days of Kurt Cobain's life, but it may not be far from the truth.

There was a very funny review of Gus Van Sants "Last Days" at www.cinematical.com. . What was found most interesting was Pitt's almost comedic portrayal of "Blake" (a fictional version of Kurt Cobain), specifically the classic heroin nod off, perfectly choreographed and unintentionally comedic in it's sensibility..Review from Cinematical.com: : Once he finally gets it on, he leaves it on MTV, and a Boyz II Men video floods the screen with its high-production value and frantically choreographed "despair". Blake proceeds to fall into a dope nod that resembles avant garde dance. Sign this kid up with Twyla Tharp - get Marc Jacobs to design the costumes, and heroin ballet could be huge.

This morning, I finished watching the movie "Last Days" and just like in Seattle, it started pouring rain... I mean the sky was crying and the rain was pouring. I just sat on my couch and watched the rain wet the windows like teardrops:  Drip, drip, drip...Just like it does in Seattle, rain.

RIP-Kurt Cobain..

Thanks-Tee-Stay Metal, Stay SOBER, Stay Brutal, and show compassion..\m/ -l-

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

New blog link

New blog link for bootleg searchers:     http://allthingsmetal.blogspot.com/                                                                    //Blog spot for extreme metal heads "Allthingsmetalblogspot.com."..

Enjoy..Thanks-Tee-..Stay Metal, Stay Brutal, Stay troo. \m/ -l- 

Now watching on DVD: Gus Van Sant's "Last days" based upon the last few days of Nirvana's Kurt Cobain.

Sunday, January 1, 2006

Happy New Year/2006 (666)

Happy New Year, and I forgot to thank my wonderfull cat/kittie and alter ego "Spakyle" in NYC whom I miss very mutch. I'll be home soon. Happy New Year to all you metal heads, and cool people, wherever you may be..
Wow, I'm hungover now, need to eat and drink more... 2006 is shaping up to be a very good year in extreme metal, and I will get my shit together this year..                                       BTW, .I just saw this movie on DVD "Grizzley Man", lol...Poor dude, he got eaten by a big, bad bear, RIP Treadwell.. Despite my sarcastic humor towards hippies whom have clearly lost thier minds, there a moments of sheer beauty in "Grizzly Man" captured on video, specifically Trendwell's relationship with the red foxes. WOW, 13 summers out with "da bears" in Alaska and ONE ornery bear freaks out on him. Treadwell was crazy with his bear preservationist drivel, but ya know, he's got balls..Metal horns to Treadwell \m/  
Here are some very good releases that you might have missed in 2005, check them out if you haven't already..
Origin-Echoes of Decimation
Disgorge-Parrelles of Infinite Torture
Beheaded-Omnious Bloodline
Arsebreed-Munching the Rotten
Napalm Death-The Code is Red..
Hate Eternal-I Monarch..
Deeds Of Flesh-Crown of Souls
Vile-A New Age of Chaos

Stay Metal, Brutal,.and Stay Sane, Happy New Year, 2006-Thanks-Tee-\m/. -l-